Pain Update

I made another appointment yesterday with my doctor and explained my desperation to get over the pain. When you have had enough, well you have visions you don't want to talk about because you don't want to look crazy. I could never explain desperation before being in so much pain for such a long time - I guess I have never been that bad off before.

I told him that there is NO WAY depression is causing my pain. I am not always depressed, just when I can't do anything about my neck and back hurting. Well, he was still kinda not very understanding about it. Students seem to get a bad rep for "faking pain" to get drugs at my college medical center, so I can understand how the doctors there can be guarded about just writing scripts for it. But, I told him, I have no intention of being on meds for the rest of my life! We NEED to find out what the heck is wrong and fix it so I can have my normal (not so cranky and irritable) life back.

The Dr. finally had me get an X-ray and wants to see me Monday to talk about options like physical therapy and chiropractic. Well, since I am maxed on my physical therapy allowance on my health insurance until August... AND, I just did therapy last fall -yet the problem is back again?!, I am thinking I might try a chiropractor :? I hear a lot of horror stories, but I am willing to give it a shot! The chiropractor here has great reviews.

Also, the doc actually gave me a pain med, rather than an anti-inflammatory or muscle relaxer. No joke- with in 20 min of the first dose, I stopped being a b**ch. I don't like the way it makes me feel (almost drunk, kinda?), but DANG does it feel GREAT to have relief and to not cause everyone to not want to e around me!!!

 :D :D :D Nothing like a happy moment in a sea of the sads!